Zoning Out

                When you see someone just sitting and staring off into space, do you wonder what they are seeing, hearing, or thinking?  Well, it may be that they are not seeing hearing, or thinking anything.  For me, zoning out is a way to escape everything and sometimes it just happens.  When I’m feeling down or overwhelmed I’ll zone out, losing track of time and of what is going on around me.  Some people think that I’m listening or watching or just thinking things through, but when I zone out I hear nothing, see nothing, and think of nothing.

                Sometimes that what my life feels like; nothing.  I know that I have a lot to live for and people that love me.  I’m not saying I’m suicidal (although I do have those thoughts), this is just the way I feel sometimes.  When I get like this, I just need someone to pull me out of my slump.  I may hate my life and the way I live right now – but I don’t hate the people in it.  I love my family, my friends, and (most of all) my son, but that doesn’t stop me from hating everything else.

                I know that these feelings come and go, so I know that I’ll get over it at some point; it’s just that “some point” can’t come soon enough.